27 Oct A Case of Mistaken Identity – October 28 2018
Posted at 18:27h in Daily Thoughts
You are the consciousness which is the witness of all the drama, watching in amusement as the ego plays its games, dons different masks at different times and ends up identifying itself with the roles it plays. The real you is that ever-blissful, unchanging, blessed consciousness…
It is more precious than anything your mind can conceive of and O! how fortunate that this priceless pearl is not far away in some inaccessible part of the world, or hidden in the dark bowels of the earth. It is nearer to you than your own jugular vein, it is Bliss Supreme which the sages of yore imbibed and which then made them dance in ecstasy. It is your very ‘Self’.
Will you, ignoring this great treasure, play with mere trinkets? It is for this blissful being who shines through every heart that man searches everywhere except within.
Sri M, Jewel in the Lotus
The Truth of life is Bliss. Bliss is what we are. It is the very stuff of which we are made. And yet… And yet the world is filled with suffering and with people seeking desperately for happiness, or at least for a lessening of their misery. If life is Bliss, why are we not experiencing it as such?
Simply because we mistakenly identify ourselves with the ego, rather than with the Self.
As long as we are embodied, we continually will have reactions to the world. We will have feelings and emotions, some of them rather large. We will be thrown into thinking about these feelings, seeing them as problems to be solved (rather than as sensations to be experienced), speculating as to their cause and who’s to blame–ourselves and/or others and/or the world at large–and trying to think our way to their solution. With so much going on, all these thoughts, feelings, sensations and ideas swirling through us, if someone were to ask ‘who are you?’, we of course would say ‘I am all this! My mind won’t stop, I feel lousy, I can’t catch a break, the world is out to get me, I’m just having one of those days, life sucks, God hates me, I’m a bad person, my ex- is a horrible person, everyone is so selfish…’ etc. The idea that I am happiness seems absurd.
But we are something other than all this. We are the spirit of this body life. We are the essence that is here witnessing these thoughts and feelings, that exists beyond these thoughts and feelings, that is transcendent of all this. Transcendent of everything of the relative world, our body and its sensations, our mind and its thinking included.
This is what we contact in meditation. The transcendent realm deep within that is our essence. This essence doesn’t go away when we are outside of meditation. It is still there behind everything else. The only question becomes will I continue to see myself as all these thoughts and feelings, or will I open myself to the possibility that I am something-other-than all these thoughts and feelings; and if I am this something-other-than, am I willing to believe that its nature is happiness? For if I am this something-other-than, and if its nature is happiness, then in this moment, regardless of what might be going on in my world, I am happiness. However…
However, it won’t be found unless I choose to look for it. Within. Unless I become willing to remind myself that I am not my opinion of myself or my thoughts about myself or my feelings about myself, unless I make the effort to ask ‘what am I’ that is something-other-than all this, that is behind or below or beyond all this. Unless I become willing to experience my essence.
Today I will find the willingness to become present to the world, rather than to my thoughts and feelings about the world. I will find the willingness to become present to my awareness rather than to my thinking. I will feel the feelings in my body without paying attention to the stories my mind wants to tell me about them. I will assume that the essence of what I am is bliss, and I will face the world expecting that essence to make itself known.