11 Dec Reaching from the Darkness to the Light – December 12 2020
…the question is whether the Ignorance can be transcended, whether a complete essential realisation turning the consciousness from darkness to light, from an instrument of the Ignorance seeking for Knowledge into an instrument or rather a manifestation of Knowledge proceeding to greater Knowledge, Light enlarging, heightening into greater Light, is or is not possible. My view is that this conversion is not only possible, but inevitable in the spiritual evolution of the being here.
Sri Aurobindo, in a letter to Nirodbaran, 7-7-1936,
Correspondence with Sri Aurobindo
I came to spiritual seeking out of necessity and a sense of desperation. I felt like I was drowning in a darkness of grief and shame and worthlessness, and there was nothing in the world I knew that had helped. Maybe in this other world, the world of spirit, I might find an answer.
Sri Aurobindo was the first teacher who reached me in my despair and whose voice I could understand and follow. I went to India my first time to study his work more deeply.
Sri Aurobindo taught me that consciousness reaches out from the darkness toward the light, and in doing so, becomes en-lightened; and then continues to expand for its own sake, for the sheer joy of consciousness to evolve itself.
From this perspective, darkness can be seen as a gift. If I hadn’t needed spiritual connection so desperately, would I have ever committed to the kind of daily work that’s necessary to find and grow this connection?
Each moment of despair – or rage or shame or terror or depression – that we experience in this body triggers a story in my head that tells me I am not worthy of life, or that the world and its problems are not worth slogging through; and each of these moments is an opportunity to turn again toward the light, no matter how hopeless it might feel that things will ever change.
When we do this again and again and again, the light in us begins to reach out for itself, simply because that is what light does.
In the end, each of us are here for this journey of the whole through us as individuality – from the darkness to the light. In the infinite scheme of things, the process is already complete. The Light has conquered the Darkness absolutely. To remember this might make it easier to choose once more, today, to stay around for the joy of the journey.
Today I will remember that Light is the truth of me, and that whatever darkness I might be feeling is a passing experience. I will open to feeling the Light within myself, and to seeing it reflected in you.