25 May Special and Unique – May 26 2019
That presence, which is found in every particle of creation, suffuses your life, too. You are a book of secrets waiting to be opened… Ultimately you have to believe that your life is worth investigating with total passion and commitment. It took thousands of tiny decisions to keep the book of secrets closed, but it takes only a single moment to open it again.
Deepak Chopra, The Book of Secrets
We are meant to give of ourselves to the world. We are meant to live, and by living fully, the gift that we are is given to the world.
Each of us is unique, absolutely special. A one-of-a-kind expression of consciousness. And we each know this, on some level. When we know ourselves only as individuality, only as our ego-mind, this can be confusing. When we know ourselves only as the ego, insisting on our specialness will bring us to arrogance and self-concern, to a life fraught with desires and fears. We will feel separate and alone and have to insist that our specialness be recognized by the world in order just to feel okay about being alive.
To know ourselves as Totality, though, is paradoxically to give of our specialness, our uniqueness, to the world. And whether or not it is recognized will be beside the point.
The truth of our existence in the relative world is our uniqueness. I am Totality, nature, expressed through this particular personality. When I repeat something I’ve learned, it comes through me colored by the life experiences I’ve had and by the point of view I’ve developed in all these decades of being me. Someone who has had similar life experiences, or has found a similar way of understanding the world, may be able to hear from me what they never would have been able to hear from someone else.
My job is to be here and to give of myself fully. To align myself with nature, rather than with my thinking, with my ego. I step out of the small ideas of self and into the flow of nature, moving ever forward, into the unknown of each new moment. I present myself to nature; and it is nature’s job, then, to use me fully and appropriately. It will use me to speak to those who can hear it from me, and it will use me to send elsewhere those who cannot hear it from me. It will use me to anger those who need to be angered and to comfort those who may be comforted by me. I do not need to know how to be, I do not need to ‘figure out’ what to do. I have only to be open to the truth that wants to be expressed through me and connected to the world outside with the idea of serving something higher than my smallness, with the willingness to be of service in this world, with the knowledge that I, uniquely, am suited to a job nature wants me to perform, and by paying attention to nature, I will be guided unerringly to that job and to the next and to the next.
Today I will ask nature what it would have me do. I will make myself available to be of service. And then I will show up where I am called upon to show up–awake, aware, loving and kind–knowing that I will be used somehow, in some way, and for the good of all, for the good of nature itself.