The Origin of Emotional Sickness – October 25 2018

The Origin of Emotional Sickness – October 25 2018

The ‘person’ that had been no longer existed. There was no personal ‘I’ or self or ego, only an Infinite Presence of unlimited power that had replaced what had been ‘me’.
 
…All things revealed their infinite beauty and perfection as the expression of Divinity.
 
…There was the ability to perceive the reality that underlay personalities and that the origin of emotional sickness lay in people’s belief that they were their personalities.
David R. Hawkins, M.D., Ph.D.,
I: Reality and Subjectivity
 
There is a simplicity to the Vedic worldview, what is sometimes called the philosophy of Advaita, or nonduality, and it is this:
 
The world is one thing. It is whole, perfect and complete. As this one thing, there is a perfection to all that is. I am perfectly who I am in this moment. My friend’s 13 year old son is being a perfectly 13 year old son in this moment. My cat is being perfectly cat-like in this moment. Everything everywhere is perfectly what it is in this moment.
 
So with all this perfection, where is the problem of life?
 
The problem lies solely in my mistaken belief that I am this personality and its reactions to the world, rather than to remember that I am the underlying reality of perfection.
 
As this personality, I can be upset that my son is acting out (i.e., being a teenager); I can feel homicidal that my wife is having an affair, or treating me as if I don’t matter; I can feel disrespected that the man in the car that cost more than I made last year just cut me off on Laurel Canyon.
 
When I have these reactions–and take them as my truth–I empower the ego. I lend credence to the idea that I am separate from the whole, and that I must be a certain way in the world in order to be safe. I give myself permission to disengage from life, from love. I feed off of the emotional juice of self-righteous anger, of being a victim. I permit myself to step out of life, indulging in the only power the ego-self ever has, which is the power to say ‘no’.
 
When I allow myself this reactivity, I give the ego the feeling it wants of empowerment and of safety in separation; but I also have closed myself off from the place inside that is the only source of happiness and fulfillment. I have doomed myself to a world of dissatisfaction, and of needing to find more and more reasons out there for my unhappiness. I am choosing to live in endless repetition of ‘the problems’ of life, and my seeming inability to change things.
 
There is an infinitely simple way around all this. Yes, we may have reactions–anger, hurt feelings, sadness, fear–but we don’t take these reactions seriously. We don’t allow them to determine our state of being. We don’t take them as evidence of what kind of world we are living in. They are simply feelings. ‘Uncomfortable body sensations.’ We feel them. We let them wash through us, and we pay no attention at all to the cascades of thought they might trigger in us–all the self-explanations of what’s wrong with me and/or what’s wrong with the world. 

Then we remind ourselves of the truth of who and what we are: perfect expressions of perfect life, exactly where we are meant to be in this moment, having exactly the experience we are meant to have in order to know even more fully the perfection of life we are meant to be. And then we get busy with the next indicated action, which always is about being in the flow of life, rather than out of that flow.
 
Not always easy, but always worth attempting; and the more we even recognize this behavior as a possibility, the more we recognize we have choice in the matter, always, the better at the choice we will become; and as we become better at choosing life and love and self-acceptance and flow, choosing movement and saying yes to life, the more the universe will respond to us in kind, supporting the choice we are making.
 
Today I will behave as if I love everyone around me, and as if everyone around me has at least the potential to love me. I will accept everyone as being exactly who they are meant to be in this moment, and everything as exactly how it is meant to be in this moment. I will assume that the world is good, and that I am at one with it, and I will behave in the way this Truth would cause a man to behave. Regardless of what feelings I may be having or what the voice of my ego may tell me I need to do.
Adele’s Rattlesnake, Phipps Park, Billings, Montana
All original material copyright © 2018 Jeff Kober